I personally have felt this too.
Most people would also acknowledge that they too have felt this.
Coming to terms with how you are feeling and looking for a way out and a real changed. I can only share with you my own experience.
I was 21 alone, a single parent and felt so alone and insecure with a young baby. I was aware that I did not know how badly I was in need of a Teacher, to show me how to live and care for another human being. I had family they were far away. I felt very alone in my flat things on my mind and experiences I did not understand , people around me I had not come across in my life growing up.
The path I had chosen to walk on was a difficult path because of the choices and decisions I had made.
I felt totally alone with my thoughts and facing life full on with fear and trepidation. The Fear and Anxiety was so bad that it made me very ill – not able to eat or drink and my stomach was tied up in knots.
On night I was lying in my bed in so much pain in my chest and felt that my life was being squeezed out of me.
I had no one to call on in the middle of the night – no mobile phones, because at this point they were not available, this was the early 1970s. I did not have a phone in my flat.
As I lay there I became very aware that if something were to happen to me during the night my baby was going to suffer too.
The days before I had been reading my childhood bible, Matthew, Mark Luke and John but did not believe that this was possible. However, lying in the bed with all the pain and fear and anxiety welling up in me, I cried out to God, admitted that I did not believe in Him but asked him to come heal me. I was then aware of a peace and the pain subsided and I fell asleep. The next morning I was so conscious that some extraordinary had happened to me , I decided to reread Matthew, Mark Luke and John and there in the pages of their testimonies was the same Jesus/God/Yeshua who had touched my life. I was thrilled to know that this had happened to me. I wanted to share it with every one I met.
However, not every one believes you when you share your story. That does not matter, you know what happens to you when you have your own experiences.
I am not talking about a religion or a fantasy, I am talking about a living relationship with the Master of the Universe, Creator of all Life. I know that He came to seek our the sick, the lonely, broken people. People with no hope. He came to save us from ourselves.
If you are in a dark place at the moment and looking for an answer. This is my answer that happened to me.
Cry out to God, He does hear you. Admit you do not believe or trust him. that no matter how bad you think you are or how miserable you feel God is looking at you personally today with open arms just waiting for the invitation to come into your life to transform it and make you whole.
Ask Jesus to come into your heart, your life and teach you how to live life to the full. Surrender all your pain, your fear and anxiety to him. Trust that when you surrender you will be changed forever from where you were to where you could be going. The journey begins with the sense of knowing that there is someone out there that cares for you.
You may not come from a praying family, I can assure you that there people praying for people all the time. People they do not know, we are all connected through time and space. Our lineages may not be clear but we are all connected. WE all can pray for one another and lift each other up and ask for forgiveness and forgive others who have hurt you in the past.
Jesus gave us a prayer that he prayed and taught to the disciples.
Our Father who is in heaven, holy is your name.
Your Kingdom come, your will be done, On earth as it is in Heaven
Give us this day our daily bread
Forgive us our sins as we forgive sins of others against us.
Lead us not into temptation, deliver us from the Evil one, deliver us from hard testing.
Yours is the power and the glory forever and ever.
Amen.
We can be sure that even if we are not really sure of who to pray even a small pray, cry for help – God save me and help me be a better person, heal me of my sickness and sick heart. Please in Jesus name.
I pray that those who read this will get the benefit from it.
I have discovered myself just how Jesus understand our pain and sorrow.
On the night before he was arrested and taken to be crucified he was in the garden with his friends, Peter James and John, they went there to pray together. Jesus walked a little further way from them and asked them to stay awake which he prayed. He went and cried before the Holy God and asked God that if it were possible to take the cup of suffering he was about to endure on behalf of all humanity and all living beings. He cried so hard that blood started to come through his brow and tears were pouring out of him. He was a young man of 33 sent by God to die for us. Yet here he was knowing that he was about to go and be crucified asking for God not to let him have to do it. Yet he knew that was the exact reason why he had come to dwell on the earth with us to share in our suffering and pain. Then while he was on the cross after being humiliated and insulted, spat upon and mocked, he hanging on the cross waiting for the time to come for him to give up his life force. He cried out to God feeling really abandoned and lost that he too experienced even that for us, each one of us. The as he was dying he asked the Father to forgive those who had done what they did, because he knew that they were following Gods plan to be sure that the Salvation of the whole of Humanity would come to pass. God raised Him up and now He sits at the right hand of the Father watching over all the earth and all the human beings in their suffering and pain, knowing that as each person who calls out to him and asks him for help he is there ready to wrap his arms around us and lead us gently to a better way.
I only share with you from my own experiences of what I have learned over the years to encourage others to reach out and get to know him for themselves and develop a real relationship with God the Father to live life to the full with joy in your heart and peace in your soul.
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