Where do I begin


Where do I begin, many years ago when I was in my 20’s I suffered with Chronic Nervous Indigestion, my daughter was 7 months old. I am not a religious person but I did recognise that that there is Supreme Being who created all things.  I was desperately ill not able to eat or drink and I felt immense pain on my chest – and I felt that I was dying.  I cried out to the creator stating that I did not believe in him.  Even though I had read Matthew – John in the gospels  However on crying out to God and feeling the release of the pain in my chest.  During the following months I was shown why I had been suffering the pains.  

Understanding traumatic events in my life.    

When we hold onto our own pain and grief it can bring about severe mental and physical issues.  Makes us withdraw – by my reaching out to the Creator It opened a door I never thought possible. It gave me clearer understanding of how much God loves us as Human Beings – no matter what and where we are at the time of the event that changes our lives for ever.

Over the years I have had occasions to seek alternative sources of help as I have had a serious problem with my Thyroid – had goitre in my neck.  Went to see the Drs that the said that I needed to have my thyroid removed and be on Thyroxin for the rest of my life – I went in search of an alternative method of treatment.  I met a young lady from India who was a dietician she checked it out for me – she suggested I eat more fish  – Iodine deficiency – I had a dream when I saw Yeshua/Jesus sitting over a fire with Fish and Honeycomb for me – so I went in search of a source of Iodine – I was recommended some Sea Kelp for Norway – I took it for 6 months at 6 a day and it brought the goitre down to nothing – over the years I had taken it intermittently when I started to feel low or tired or even putting on weight without really changing my diet.  The metabolism is controlled by the Thyroid.   My last blood test showed I was clear from any trace of the thyroid problem.

I have a great deal of issues with the Pharmaceutical industry their synthetic and chalk and trial and error attitude to people well-being – rather unpleasant when you consider it could be you they are trying a new drug on – because they need to find the right dose to help others – so they do not mind if it kills people along the way – putting down to underlying illnesses.   

My own mother had been treated for years for Rheumatoid Arthritis and in the end she died of Cancer of the Kidney – let me see the combination of chalk and synthetic materials which our bodies are not able to filter could have been the cause of the cancer in her kidney.   She had it removed and within a very short while she was dead.  Let me see – I think I have good reason not to trust the medical profession.  As I also worked as a medical secretary for many years too I typed up notes and their findings and was shocked to hear that they were trying and testing drugs on people at different levels to find out what kind of side effects and results they would get at different dosages.  Really we are Human Beings not guinea pigs. (I would not even treat a guinea-pig they way the medical profession treat people) Science does not have the answer only God has the complete knowledge and truth about all things.  Him I trust – with all my life – whether I live or die is in HIS HANDS ALONE.

I do spend a lot of my time seeking the Fathers advice and understanding and knowledge regarding my own life and that of which I see around me.  We are a disgusting mess – we treat each other really badly and even to the point of hating our fellow human being.

When I was marred in 1993 I went to live in Spain briefly with my new husband – oh joy.

We came back at the end of 1993 as he was unable to find work for the winter despite having been offered it.  He was unable to cope with life – sadly he was a wrong choice for me.  I learned a very hard lesson being with him.  We did have some great times together be we were totally unsuitable.

I got sick with Hep B which nearly killed me.  My daughter nursed me through nearly a year of sickness, Jaundiced and unable to eat properly my daughter was 17 at the time and my husband was nowhere to be seen – could not handle the fact that I was not able to give him money or be there for him as and when he wanted.  Unable to see me suffering he chose to abandon me.  Something that I HAD not realised he had done until my daughter was telling me of that time of our lives.  Sadly he had now passed away. 

Now I look back at the events of that time and as she was telling me about it she said that she had called the Drs in a few times and a few times I nearly died.  She was terrified and felt very alone except for her own friends who came and helped her with me.  There was one of my own friends who came to help – someone whom had said previously that she had not wanted to be my friend or could every see me as her friend it is amazing how we do not really know who are true friends are until we are in times of trouble.  I thank God for all those who came to help my daughter at that time and pray that their lives will be blessed with coming to know the Creator. God Yehovah, Maker of Heaven and Earth and every-thing living in and on the earth. We are privileged that He sought to create us in His own Image.  We betray Him and ourselves when we point the finger at another in Judgment and hate.  We are called to love our enemies and pray for those who despitefully abuse us.

In 2006 I married again after divorcing the first husband something I really had not wanted to do despite all the issues we had that separated us.  My second husband was a really lovely man but suffered terribly with Hypochondriac issues.  From the first months of us being together he was always checking his blood pressure and taking meds.  At first I put down to the fact that his divorce had left him feeling rather shattered – I should have given him a wide birth too.  Sadly I am a mug and look after stray dogs and people and end up in situations which are neither helpful to anyone.  To not to go into too much detail in 2011 he took his own life thinking that he would be less of a burden to me – unfortunately he left me is a situation where I can neither be with anyone else in a relationship – which I think was a cruel turn of events as his previous wife was able to do just that.

Any way after he died I went to live in Span trying to get away from the house and memories of finding him. 

It is a dreadful place to be in the one who is left behind no matter what the circumstances. 

Dealing with the anger and frustration of not being able to move on with my life I was stuck in a rut for 6 years. 

Lovely house great friends and location – just so much wrong with the situation because it never achieved its original goal I had hoped it would give me.  A new life and start with fresh ideas and plans.  In the end I had to make a decision because of Brexit and sell the house.  Wow that was a challenge in its self-preparing the house for sale – not quite sure how it would be – in the end it sold and now I am back in the UK – wow not that was close.  I came back in November last year – wow nowhere to live not sure where I want to be whether back up North to the Midlands or stay down south in Eastbourne.  I had known for a while that Eastbourne was a pretty special place for me to be in although I did not know it at the time.  Looking back I could have been in the Midlands away from my daughter again and not be able to with her or share time with her.  Thank God that even though it has been hard I made the decision to buy a static caravan as I was not sure what or where I wanted to be.  My first caravan I bought is in New Beach near Hythe – beautiful place great location for families.  Anyway it turned out not to be the right place and I needed to buy one nearer to my daughter and Eastbourne so I purchased my home near to Eastbourne.  I do love my holiday home and have got some interesting people around me. 

We have had so much to contend with this year 2020 and we still do not know where it is all going to lead in the flesh – however in the Spiritual realms I do know that as we look up we see our Redeemer returning as the time and historical is all lining up just as His word said it would. 

There is much we do not fully understand but we can be assured of one thing He never lies nor does He make false promises nor does He cheat us.  We have done all those things to Him by our betrayal and lack of obedience or understanding of what He had ordained us as Mankind to do – LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS HE HAS LOVED US – FORGIVE AND REPENT OUR SELFISH WAYS AND turn our hearts back to Him in obedience and start to love our fellow human being. 

We are all mortal while we live as we do but He has promised that we will put on our immortal bodies when He returns and we become like Him.  Sadly there those on this earth whom God already knows that have like Judas been selected to do evil to their fellow human beings – they too will reap their just rewards.  We are called to forgive and pray for those who despitefully abuse us.  We see so much pain and suffering and wonder how can we help those around us find a kinder way to resolve their heartache and misery. 

For me as someone constantly looking for alternative methods to help relieve the suffering in myself and others and spend many nights praying for understanding one thing has been made very clear to me we must get back to the beginning.  We look at how it all began – He created the Heavens and the Earth placed all the animals, and trees for fruit and food for us to eat both animal and fish and fruit.  We were also given the trees and plants for healing.  The past couple of years I have been looking at understanding how God chooses to heal His children. 

Understanding how Oils come into play when He sent the people to the priests to be receive healing through pray and laying on of hands and oils and ointments were given to the people to help them with their healing process.  When we see how the disciples were given the command to go out and heal the sick they went and healed the sick with prayer and with the laying of hands and with oils.  They were not just any old oil they were pure unadulterated oils which were used for many uses in the home and on the body both for lovely perfumes and fragrances in the rooms as well as on the body.  For me the Father has spoken clearly to me to use the oils for healing – I went on a journey to discover just what He meant as I had no experience or knowledge that there were such a wide range of beautiful oils and their purposes for our healing both Spiritually and mentally and physically.  Wow so much is to learn and understand but so far my journey had been on of great discovery.

Through this blog I hope to help you come to know how you too can enjoy the great gifts of life changes as you unravel your inner self from all its pain and traumatic experiences.  I am not perfect by any means nor do I claim to know much except from my own personal experience I have found them beneficial especially at times of great stress having a calming oil like Lavender being dispersed into my living room and on my pillow as a soother I find that I am calmer in myself.  I diffuse my own oils in accordance to the needs of my prayer and mental state – sometimes admitting you are weak and unable to cope is better than trying to remain strong and really struggling with so much pain and anxiety within yourself. 

I learned a really hard lesson while I was in Spain as I was in the process of selling my house.  I am alone no husband or companion only God as my source of encouragement and life. 

There was a night where I THOUGHT it was truly over for me.  I once again suffered a great pain in my chest and felt completely unable to do anything at it was very late at night and I was speaking with my daughter on the phone – I remember saying to her I may not make it through the night.  When I went to my bed that night I cried to the Father if it is your will that you plan to take me then take me because I was convinced there was no way out.  I was totally amazed that I woke up in the morning a  completely changed person – you see only God can take your life from you- no man can – the Father has a time and place for all people – He is in control and no matter what the so called experts say they are Not God.  They cannot give YOU  life only God can. 

So if you think that by saving your life by any other method than by laying at the Fathers throne you will lose it.  Only the Great I Am can make that call on every living being on this planet and beyond.

I am learning more and more each day how to achieve a better standard of well-being and balance using really pure and genuine oils which I have been working with for a while now. I would like to introduce them to you.

Published by SUECAROLINE

I have learned a lot in the School of Life. Life is very precious and we have to learn to love one another, knowing that we are all connected to each other.

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